Thursday, April 25, 2013

Magick is about Change!

It is believed in the Wiccan world that we create our own reality.  Yet, for many, the concept of doing that - HOW we go about creating our better reality through correct thought followed up by correct action to manifest reality different than it might have been without our influence - often eludes people.  In doing a great deal of research on concepts of Quantum Physics and how those concepts are applied to the practice of Magick, I have found some key points that have become life changing for me on this note.  I hope, in sharing them, they will likewise help you!

I have made a weekly meditation of watching the movie "What the Bleep?! - Down the Rabbit Hole."  In this movie, it is clearly illustrated how the realities created by thought patterns influence our lives.  There is a segment in this movie regarding the work of Dr. Masaru Emoto, a Japanese gentleman who has done an amazing study on the influence of thought energy on water molecules.  In his study, he takes a small amount of water as it comes, without anything added to it.  Then takes the same water and has a thought projected into it and retakes the photographs of the frozen molecules.  The absolute beauty of thoughts like Love, Joy and Peace are irrefutable.  Likewise, the ugliness of thoughts like Hatred, Killing and other negative thought patterns defuse the molecules into unorganized globules that, by far, hold less beauty and even less cohesion than positive thoughts.  If you haven't seen Dr. Emoto's work before, here is the link to his website where you can do your own research. http://www.masaru-emoto.net/english/water-crystal.html

Now, here is the key that brought this set of lessons truly home for me. 

Our bodies down to the cellular level are over 80% water.  So, if the thoughts we concentrate on most every day are illness, pain, guilt, hatred, hardship, blockages and other negative aspects of our lives, what are we doing to ourselves??  How can we remain positive and cohesively moving forward in our lives while we allow ourselves the addiction to these negative emotions?!  Frankly, we can't.   Brain chemistry is just as addictive as any other form of chemical addiction.  So, in keeping to these thought patterns, we consign ourselves to misery.  Yet, for many, these thought pattern addictions are just as hard to fight off as an addiction to cigarettes, alcohol or drugs - sometimes harder, because we are, at first, unaware of them as addictions.  However, just because a task is difficult, doesn't mean its impossible.  You DO have the power to change it!  You simply have to be brave enough to try and keep trying, over and over and over again.

If you find that you are too stuck in the ruts of your own thought patterns, examine what it is those thought patterns are doing for you. What other responses in your life are they justifying? Does your pain justify you being angry with the world? Does your anger with the world, your body or others keep you feeling somehow "right" in carrying forward that negativity to the point of self-detriment? What is that guilt feeding? What is that blame feeding? Why is it necessary to continue with these negative thoughts? Do you find you feel safer there somehow? 

After some long self-study, I realized I had many negative thought patterns that I had allowed myself to wallow in daily, sometimes hourly, that desperately needed to be broken.  So, after doing my movie-meditation one day, I decided to give myself a test.  For 30 days, I made a habit of getting into my bathtub and soaking on a nightly basis before bed, while meditating and chanting to myself "I Love Myself!  I Love My Life, My Home and My Path!  I Love Myself!  I am filled with Joy and I am at Peace!!!"  During this meditation/chant, I envisioned my bathwater being infused with these feelings down to the molecular level and my own cells, organs and body aligning with those same feelings, thus immersing myself in this loving, positive cocoon of Love, Joy and Peace.  Likewise, for that same 30 days, I made a habit of taking a 64 oz. glass of water and infusing it with these same thoughts, envisioning the water glowing a vital, life-giving blue green color.  If I had time outside of work to accomplish it, I did the water charging and drinking more than once a day. 

I can vouch for the fact that by the time that 30 days of these combined exercises in infusing myself, inside and outside, with these positive thoughts, I DID begin to feel a positive change!  I, who has suffered with depression, generalized anxiety disorder, chronic pain issues and more which I had allowed to keep me in a cycle of suffering began to see the world differently!  I began to wake up smiling.  Even on days I was in serious pain, I still smiled!  I felt happy, productive and able to cope far better.  I haven't had an anxiety attack in 3 months now and on days when I still feel depressed, I realize I have control!  I CAN change my reality!

You can do it too!  YOU ARE THE MAGICK!!!!  If you find that your path isn't going as you wish it to go, change it for the better!  It takes work and focus, but that doesn't mean you aren't able to do it and it doesn't mean you're not worth it!  You ARE worth making an effort for the better in your every day life!  You ARE Worthy!!!  I BELIEVE IN YOU!!! You CAN do this! You CAN have a better reality every single day of your life than you've had up to this point!

Try my little experiment and see if it doesn't help you!

Bright Blessings for your ever-present Success!!

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Lessons Taught by a Two-Year Old Angell


Mother Goddess, Father God... today you have reclaimed a gift you loaned our lives.  Ryver returns to your hands today.  We look forward to the day when we will see her smiling face again and thank you for the blessing of her presence and its many lessons.  My granddaughter, Ryver KayLynn Ryelie Angell is once more a star in your fermament.  May her shining memory remind us all daily how important love truly is.
This is for the sweetest Ryverbug the world ever was blessed to hold…with all my love, Nana.

Lessons Taught by a Two-Year Old Angell


A gentle touch gets a gentle touch,
So does Love multiply times Love times infinity in return…
Problems and weights of the world shared by love…
Are less than half what they are on their own.

 
A blessing is the smile your loved one gives
Just because you walked into the room
Comfort is Mother’s Touch, Father’s Arms and Sissy kisses…
Relief is relying on Family’s good heart and strong tunes...

 
Tears cried for good reasons are good to cry
Tears cried for strife are good too
Hugs given “just cus” are the best ones, go on, give ‘em a try!
Kisses are luvins sweeter still, especially the ones ‘tween you and i

 
Naps are good and so are nuggets, no matter the kind of day
Love best, Love true, Love always in every way
Compassion for those that hurt us, even in the name of care
Especially the ones that don’t mean to, wouldn’t by choice, no never

 
Sisters are blessings and curses, best friends, when not stealing your stuff
Nests and breakfasts and secrets and dressup are important, not those “hard” answers
Through all the hellish, my family’s love made me tough
They called me a warrior, but in the mirror… I’m a little dancer!

 
Remember me with smiles and song, remember me dancing in sunlight
Remember me as growing up with you, strong, straight, upright
Remember that I hear you and see you and love you all the while
Remember I haven’t gone far away, I’m as close as your next smile

 
Give love, even when it hurts, give it all the time
Give when you’re angry and when you’re in pain, give it no matter the price
Give sweetness, not poison, not assumptions or pity
Give all the best of you there is, nothing less shall suffice

 
Dance into darkness and face your fears smiling
If you can’t baffle them with bullshit, win them with beguiling
Dance like a dervish, until you feel happy
Don’t forget where you came from, shine on even when life’s crappy

 
And Love first, Love last, Love every moment in between
Love is the greatest healer, the greatest comfort, greatest reason
Love is the brightest lesson for everyone I’ve touched
Never forget Love is most precious in every season.
 
 
...... did you get it?  No matter the question....Love *is* the best answer......

Monday, September 17, 2012

Breaking out of the Broom Closet

I have been in the Craft for nearly 30 years now and been a High Priestess for 22 of those years.  As a part of my advocacy for this faith, I did a television talk show back in the early 1990's.  "Kestryl & Company," the first talk show on the topic of Wicca, Paganism and earth-based religions, was an effort to go past the news articles that ran every Hallows - which was about the only time of year we ever got positive press and get into the more mainstream media coverage on what it was that Wiccans and Pagans truly believe and practice.  There have always been brave souls out there, like Pete Pathfinder, Bob Clarke, Laurie Cabot, Selena Fox and more who have stepped out into the modern world to help us, in this generation be brave enough to openly discuss our faith and to help the mainstream world come to its relatively new-found acceptance of our paths.  But, there is still much work to be done, both inside and outside our own communities!

When we did "Kestryl & Company", we showed rituals on that show, interviewed people from multiple paths under the Pagan umbrella and even covered "buzz" topics like addiction treatment on the show.  We were proud of our work, but we were far from popular for it, inside or outside of our Pagan community.  I am, however, completely gratified to see that - as the old song says - "Times, they are a-changin!"

Thanks to people like Belladonna Laveau - the Arch Priestess of the ATC, Terry and Amanda Riley from Southern Delta Church of Wicca-ATC, Tim and Edwina Rickman of Apple Oak Grove-ATC, Sonya Hill-Miller and Brian Miller from Temple of the Sacred Gift-ATC, Alfred Willowhawk & Willo Wellspring of Wite Rayvn Metaphysical Church of KS & MO - ATC and so many more around the world who have bravely stepped out of the broom closet and into the limelight.  Thanks to them, we have outlets available now that were not available to us, even just those 20 years ago.  We have beautiful, wise and strong leaders to help us to share the difficult, but positive steps taken by previous generations which now allow us to work even harder toward our faith's goals.  Along with others who have grown along side me, I look with hope toward one day being able to look across the veil to see future generations walking their Wiccan path shoulder to shoulder with other faiths without blinking an eye or having a thought for the dangers so many have faced about practicing their faith openly in previous generations. 

In that same 20 year time frame, this faith has grown by leaps and bounds on so many levels.  I remember interviewing Grandmother Elspeth on our show back in 1991 before there were Crone's Councils firmly in place across the country as we find them now and talked about how desperately the collective wisdom of Elders, Sages and Crones was needed across the country.  Now, just this weekend, I witnessed yet another Sage brought into the fold of Wiccan Sages & Crones - my second witnessing of such in a year's time- and it was with great joy and honor that we witnessed this rite. I am told I can also look forward to seeing more Crones recognized soon as well!  This development is so refreshing and so has been so very needed!  Especially for those whose calling is to seek to do more than just the localized, Coven/Covenstead path, but to work in the greater overall national community!  Finally, there are places to seek advice, to find wise counsel with those of greater experience and to seek the knowledge required of both our faith and the laws of the land through which they have fought to gain us this stronger ground.  Unlike much of society who seems to throw away its Elders, Wiccans and Pagans revere the blessing of Wisdom we have within them and I, for one, am proud to be under their care! 

We have seen the battle fought and won to see the US government recognize our faith as holding its own legal standing alongside other mainstream faiths. We have seen our Wiccan and Pagan veterans recognized under their faith for their service and to gain them rights for appropriate burial symbols as they are laid to rest.  We have seen people across the country gain new and previously unheard of support from their employers regarding taking their faith holidays off from work and toward receiving benefits that other faiths have enjoyed for decades now.  Yet, even among our own communities, there is still much work to be done to come up to the standards of proper community living set before us by the living example of our Wiccan and Pagan Elders, Sages & Crones of today.

I have seen it said as recently as the last six months that to have things like community service contracts with mainstream businesses in place so that we can better serve our greater community's elderly and handicapped needs being touted as "selling out our faith to "The Man"!" and I am aghast.  The work done by our faith's Elders to gain those sorts of agreements is AMAZING and without them, so many would still be struggling and afraid to even speak to their communities - much less to serve those needs outright as their group's Charity effort!  Resources of all kinds are to be shared!  SERVICE is the basis of our entire Clergy calling in the Wiccan path!  Caring for our community is the heart of Wiccan belief.  So, how can it be a bad thing when we are seeing a single Wiccan church in the most conservative part of our country makes such undeniably positive steps toward those awesome community goals?! 

ALL forms of service are not only valid, but worthwhile and needful in our communities across this country!  We cannot afford to nay-say others simply because they chose a different way to accomplish a goal for the greater good than we may have chosen.  If you do not believe in that sort of service, OK - don't do that particular path yourself!  The needs are many and the resources are out there, so find and do for yourself whichever path makes *you* happiest, but also cheer on your brothers and sisters of other paths in finding theirs!  THAT is what Wiccans and Pagans are all about, according to our faith!  Tearing each other's practices, beliefs and community offerings down isn't the way to build our bonds or to teach others around us how to work together - inside our faith or outside our path.  We are long past the era when separatism was considered desirable and necessary, so to perpetuate it with judgments like this one is counter-productive to the work so hard won by our Elders and does them no honor.  Wiccans and Pagans offer Tolerance where others offer judgments - so, shake your brother's and sister's hands when they make strides of this magnitude!  We are a faith of growth, beauty and LOVE - so LOVE what others do for the greater good, not just the ones you'd do yourself if you'd thought of it first!

My deepest gratitude to previous generations for all your hard work, for the sacrifices you have made so that I may walk in the Light and raise my children and grandchildren in this faith in the open!  Thank you, to those modern Leaders making so many positive steps and bringing in so much positive press!  Thank you all for allowing me to observe and participate in this growth in our individual communities and in our overall country's larger Wiccan and Pagan community!  I am deeply honored to walk beside you, to learn from your wisdom and to be counted, by some of you, among your friends and family. 

Sunday, July 29, 2012

The Rumor Mill....

Gossip.  Gossip is a really ugly bi-product of usually, over-zealous, often erroneous and completely fallible human beings.  The habit of gossiping is seen in Eastern philosophies as a point of personal weakness and something to be actively worked upon to negate from a life that is moving toward becoming Enlightened.  It is a truly abhorrent practice that, though its been a problem since man learned to speak, gained particularly popular status during the 50's & 60's soap opera generations and gained even more fuel in the social networking, Facebook/Twitter era.  However, it is really something that should actually be nipped in the bud whenever possible.  It is a petty, small-minded practice that is usually fueled by envy, jealousy, anger or other strong, negative emotions and is rarely more than partially true.

There is a game children play called "Operator" that is often used in corporate training fields to teach the lesson of how stories get warped by consecutive tellings of said story and how, the further away from the original source the information gets, the more "facts" change. You can start out with a one-paragraph story about a little brown dog that lives outside of a big, blue house with a white picket fence who had dinner at the same time his owner did, then ran away after dinner through a hole in the fence and by the time this one little story has gone through only four tellings from person to person, the house has turned small and white, the fence is chain link, the dog is big and blue, the dinner the dog ate was his owner's dinner and the owner is the one running away from home. The fact of the matter is that people simply do not pass the exact fullness of what they hear on in the next telling of a story, ever.  Even the sharpest of memories simply doesn't retain details well enough to be the spokesperson for another's life events, if they even heard the original topic matter in full to begin with. 

For instance, when a marriage is breaking up and the husband is called a "cheating ba___" or the wife is called an "unreactive ice queen" or worse, the truth of the matter is that both people - for whatever their collective reasons - have come to a truly painful place in their lives and need someone to blame and lash out at to make themselves feel better and/or justify leaving that relationship.  In any argument, the truth is never on one side or the other, but somewhere firmly in the middle of the viewpoints of the "injured" parties.  So, for one party or the other to get the entire family, town or state riled up in their own defense by villifying the other party is simply untruthful, inappropriate and unnecessarily harmful.  Even if you've fallen out of love with someone or they've done something that hurt you, that doesn't give you the right to turn around and gossip their personal reputation into the ground - especially about matters in life that should remain private.  On a path that touts, "An It Harm None!" as one of their highest guidelines for personal behavior, striking gossip off your list of things to do in life should be at the top of the list!

Private matters in life are exactly that - PRIVATE!  They aren't designed to be shared, told to others, given out to people that either aren't involved in the situation directly or have no field of understanding for the topic matter anyway.  That isn't to say that we don't deserve to get counseling or help if we need it to help us cope with difficult circumstances in life, but even counseling is supposed to be confidential.  So, honor yourself and others by allowing private matters to stay so and to have the guts and personal ethics to simply tell someone if they are stepping into a zone that is a breach of privacy.  If you know you don't need to hear something about their lives, for instance those things that some might call "TMI" or Too Much Information, say something!  Stop the one speaking and be kind enough to save them from themselves as gently as you can in their highly emotional state. 

Wisdom can tell us that rumors - especially after the third or fourth telling of the story being gossiped about - is never the truth of the matter. So rather than pass along "something you heard came from Sally that Anita told Becky from down the street about that awful guy, Phil...." either be brave enough to go to the source and ask for the truth of the matter, or better yet - have the wisdom to realize its really none of your business!

There is a teaching axim used in traditional Craft that is called the Rule of the Sphinx.  It goes like this:

"To KNOW, to DARE, to WILL, to keep SILENT,
Are the Words of the Magus,
In Order to Dare, you must Know. 
Ye must Will to possess the Empire
To Reign, ye must keep SILENT!"

That is to say, if you wish to truly Know the mysteries of the Universe, you must Dare to truly Know your whole Self without artifice or ego, first.  To Dare to Know one's own Truth, one most Will their own tongue and perceptions under control first and foremost and keep SILENT in the face of gossip, malice or confidential information.  In other words, until you're perfect and make no mistakes of your own, shut your mouth about other people's mistakes or personal, private business. 

Every path has guidelines of this sort.  The Christian faith says Jesus taught, "Let you who is without sin cast the first stone."  The Golden Rule states, "Treat others as you would be treated."  Do you wish your private business to be the fodder for the rumor mill?  No?!  Well then, refuse to be a cog in that mill for others.  Teach by example.  Learn the discipline of closing your mouth and opening your ears, mind and heart to the full truth of any matter shown to you instead of falling easy prey to falsehoods - even partial ones.  Further, extend those qualities to all concerned and if you must hear their "venting," do not judge them or the others involved without personal proof of all that you hear - and even then, determine before you go for those facts if there is truly a reason for you to know, other than your own morbid curiosity.  If there isn't a reason other than your own curiosity, gift them with their privacy and simply stay out of it!  To do otherwise only makes a fool out of you and those you harm with by fueling the rumor mill.

Friday, July 20, 2012

When new Friends come to town...

It has come to my attention that young, untrained shamans are shamans none the less.  Even the untrained can occasionally facilitate some of the finest learning experiences in life, if we're only open to that learning.  I think every person that has had gifts most or all of their lives knows the feeling of being young, strong in your abilities - sometimes to the point of being overwhelmed by them - and the Gods simply speak through these vessels at full volume for the soul with the ears to hear. 

Not that I hadn't realized it before, but the potency of it settled onto my shoulders in full about an hour ago on the gossemer wings of a golden, flower-faced barn owl.  This isn't even the first time... but try six separate "moments" with this messanger...and the help of a voice with echos of teachers of my past in her harmonies ... and voila' - I am given a new Friend.  Far more than a friend, but an answer to prayers so many I won't bother to reiterate them.  I love cosmic birthday presents!!! They ROCK!!! :D  Thanks, Mother/Father/All!!! 

It began with a walk about three months ago.  It was a full moon and an old friend of mine.  Both of us being night time people, we'd taken up the habit of taking a 1-3 mile hike on the various trails near our home town for exercise and a chance to get out in nature.  Most of them lead along the river and have many beautiful vistas to keep the walk interesting.  We had had a very deep conversation and his spiritual experiences up to that point in his life and we both agreed he would never be Wiccan.  For him, that's best both to his personal beliefs and his spiritual calling.  He had studied some, not very successfully because the path and the people and the timing weren't right.  But, he needed to express it.  So I listened.  After reassuring him that his calling was *his* to Know and his path was his to walk and that I still cared about him and his well-being, we were walking back to the car when there was a single, sharp, absolutely ringingly clear owl's cry off my right shoulder.  It was so pointed "at me" that I stopped dead in my tracks and said, "Yes, Sir?!"  A rustle of wings on wind was my only answer, but it stuck with me in dreams for weeks.

Next, Wite Rayvn Metaphysical Church of the Ozarks - ATC rolls into my life like a great big beautiful steam roller of learning, community, family and overlapping paths and bring Welsh traditions back around (for the multiple time in my life - can you say "theme"?) ... and I start reading the Mabinogi again for the many-eth time with whole new eyes, in which Blodeuwydd is a major theme, as are herbs (a love), magick, mythos, misunderstanding, rumors and everything all attached in significant places for my growth at the time they arrived.  They, in turn, got me started with Woolston-Steen Theological Seminary where the first major job I'm given is to get the Library filled and running and its symbol, this lovely library... is an Owl.  

So being a student at the school as well as the Librarian and helping with open discussions, etc., as I said at first, I'm also a student.  I wear a first year uniform and will be climbing the entire ladder of their training system.  To that end, I am in the midst of a potent class on medicine animals, so I admit being recently "attuned" in more than one manner.  I have been in Reiki training for some months now, have received several layers of blessings and attunements, along with the messages I've read in nature around me all my life.  Tuned up and blasted along my nerves with that stamp of Cosmic TRUTH that won't be denied, I can only go along for the ride and ...soar.... stunned, renewed, gratitfied and grateful beyond belief... relieved even, when others might dread what I've seen and felt, because the one that brought the message has "rumors" about them in the spiritual realms of this plane that leave humans to doubt what she really means.

In every rebirth, there is the waiting, a void-of-course time when guidance seems so far away.  It is these moments just prior to the rush of change so quick we can barely comprehend it all that can be maddening.  There is the grief, the pain of delivery and the ungodly stretch and newly trapped feeling flesh can give to a spirit as it finds itself moving that spirit into a new form... and then there is rejoicing, loving and an embrace you simply can't deny the comfort of all around you!  Its the same one that has always been there, your Mother, The Mother and your Father, The Father... and your Family - your larger spiritual Family... those holy being that nourish you, take pride in you even when you struggle, protect you with all Their collective and  fierce might and shows you how to grow with every breathe you all share.  It is the instant eyes meet eyes and souls entwine in recognition...in ultimate forgiveness...in honor, pride and wisdom...in mutual ecstatic, shocking zen of it all... when all is truly right with the world and one's vision snaps into the clarity of Vision from Above the human experience... and suddenly, I can breathe! 

Further, and with joy, I can open my heart to its fullest, even to those that call themselves my enemies... and simply love what they are, who they are, their whole experience - even when I can't "get with their program" because my path is simply so much different than theirs it would like trying to play an set of bagpipes in the middle of their french ballet.  To them I can only hope that when the proper wings settle around their shoulders, they will have the same peaceful joy my soul hums with tonight.  To know, one day, that all the actions - even the misunderstood ones - were all worth it... because a bird - or something - told them so!  The phrase "a little birdie told me..." has taken on a whole new meaning.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Learning from other than people....

I was blessed enough to have some of my best lessons on life, the meaning of true strength, fairness, instincts and unconditional love.... from Horses. In my case, they were American Saddlebred horses. I was honored to learn from one of the finest breeders and trainers of horses and people on the planet, Mrs. Alice Neihardt Thompson of Skyrim Stables. Now, in her twilight years, Alice is still one of the building blocks of my life's foundations and I will be forever grateful for her facilitating my lessons with and about my equine relatives.  One thing this process taught me was that Nature and Her beings of all shapes and sizes can often teach us better than people do.  I'm grateful for these particular lessons, so I'll share a litte piece of my experiences here.

My learning about the head conformation of a horse, I learned some things about how people learn too. Long space between the burr of the ear and the eye socket indicates, in a balanced head, the ability to learn the highest functions of thought on a horse level. Too much space and the horse tends to be spacey, inattentive, easily distracted and sometimes easily frightened. Too little space for the brainpan and they simply don't learn as easily as other horses and are sometimes, the equivelent of "learning disabled." A broad space between the eye sockets, or being "wall-eyed" shows a horse that can't focus well on tasks or training and is often easily frightened. These were the types of horses that blinders were originally created for, because -- like glasses for people -- they focus the horse's attention ahead of them rather than on all the things at their sides. Too narrow a space between the eyes and the horse - or person - is narrow sighted, inwardly focused, often selfish and greedy, especially if combined with a small eye socket. It is what horse folk call a "pinched" face. Eyes too large for the head or face denote an easily excitable horse, often a bit flightly and high strung and eyes too small gets back into the pinched look and perceptions on the world around them. A "good head" consists of balanced proportions, plenty of room to grow and think but not so much they fly off the Universe. You want eyes that see the world, can look properly in all directions, but aren't so large they take in too much information to throw the concentration/focus. Can you have a good horse with odd features? Sure... just like people, horse personalities come in all shapes, sizes, types and "colors." But are these guidelines helpful to show you approximately what you're getting in the baselines of the horse's ability to think and learn? Yes, reliably so and repeatedly proven.

One horse I had the privledge to work with was a "special needs" horse. He was born a rarity in the horse world, an RH factor baby (see google for what RH factor does in humans if you're not aware -- does the same thing in horses, its deadly for most) and so he was carefully hand raised from the moment of his birth and was, therefore, attuned to humans as "family." As he grew, Tornado Night was a gangly kid. All legs, big gates and high flying tail fanning out behind him with joy in the pastures, but if he'd been a human, he'd have looked like that carrot-topped kid with freckles and bare feet that was a bit of a klutz, easily embarrassed to a bright red face and always kind of "Doo doo DEE do!" in the mannerisms. Simple, but so sweet you couldn't resist him. As a 2 yr old, he got into some blooming jimpson weed and was partially blinded by the pollen (this is why most horse owners mow weeds down in their pastures and spray against this particular one in alot of places). He could see shadows and large movements, but his direct sight was gone. We were heart broken, but like most people in this circumstance, he overcame. However, his depth perception wasn't good, so if he stayed in the stall while a human was working, the human often got stepped on by mistake for which Tornado Night felt horrible, always, but being painful for humans, we worked out a team system. One of us would take him out for exercise on a lunge line while another cleaned his stall. Without fail, every single time he was brought back into his stall after a cleaning, he would sniff about to see who had done the work for him and the next time they came into his stall, he would wrap his big head over their body and pull them to his chest, hugging them in gratitude for his home being clean, so it wouldn't hurt his feet. This same horse adored having his tongue wagged for him. He would stick his velvet nose out of his stall's grain feeding opening and loll his tongue out to the side, just relaxing it and looking "silly/stupid." He would flip it until a nearby person grabbed hold gently, but firmly and wagged it for him. He thought, for some odd reason, this was a GREAT sensation! You could almost hear him chuckle when you did it and *you* most certainly did by the time you were done.

I was also honored to know a pair of equine soul mates. I'll tell their story another time. But, suffice to say, I learned what love was at the age of 10 by watching a pair of horses in a relationship so unique, I've never known its like before or since, even in stories. Thank you Alice and all my horse friends from Skyrim, that to this day, remind me how to treat my fellow beings with compassionate, strong and loving touch whenever possible.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Learning through Corresponding

When we are first students in the Craft, we learn about the multi-layered symbolism held within the Pentagram.  But one thing we often forget is how to place ourselves within that pentagram to learn from that symbol as a tool for our own self-assessment and personal balance.  Let me share how I teach my beginning students to do just that in order to assist their own best learning process and how to assess the problem areas of their life for better solutions. 

First, let's look at the beginning layer of correspondences for the various points on the pentagram  We already know that each aspect of Self and therefore, each direction, as a "light" side (positives) and a "dark" side (challenges).  So, for each direction or point on the pentagram, they too will have both light and dark halves to understanding them.  Here are examples.  These are, by no means, the be-all and end-all of "total" information.  They are simply places to begin.  You will add to these tables of understanding as you go along in your learning process. 

Positive East is: Color- Yellow, Time of Day - Dawn, Time in Processes - Beginnings, Part of Self - Thoughts and Thought Patterns, Time in Life - Birth through Childhood (Pre-adolescence).  Negative East is:  Tendencies for repeating negative thought patterns, hanging on to childish behavior patterns, getting stuck in childhood trauma even as adults, injuries in the birthing process, being a great "starter" but not finishing well or at all.

Positive South is:  Color - Red, Time of Day - High Noon, Time in Processes - Active movement forward, Part of Self - Acts of Will, Time in Life - Adolescence (teen hormones).  Negative South is:  Willfulness rather than acts of Will, temper tantrums caused by hormonal imbalances or lack of control over our Will, getting stuck in assumptions of ego rather than a clear sense of self-examination.

Positive West is:  Color - Blue, Time of Day - Twilight, Time in Processes - The waiting period just prior to full manifestation, Part of Self - Emotions, Time of Life - Adulthood (Pre-Menopause or Andropause).  Negative West is:  Over-emotionalism, Getting "carried away" by wounds, scars and outdated patterns of thought and behavior, becoming "unfeeling" instead of compassionate, going numb as a reaction to strong emotional content in others, blame instead of personal responsibility.

Positive North is:  Color-Green or White, Time of Day - Midnight, Time in Processes - Manifestation, Part of Self - Getting things done, finishing, Time of Life - Old Age (Sage-dom or Croning -- *not* completely hormonally related!).  Negative North is:  Never finishing projects, emotions or thought processes, "buying into" ageism or feeling old before your time,  lack of value to the wisdom of those older or more experienced than ourselves, refusing to complete patterns for fear of them or "credit" for them being taken away from us.

Positive Spirit is: Color - Purple, Indigo or Iridescent, Time of Day - "between" spaces, Dream Time, Part of Self - the Spiritual self, the ongoing soul, Time in Life - that which exists outside of time, space and the Wheel of Life, Time in Processes - The fullness of Knowing a project is complete and correct.  Negative Spirit is:  Lack of realization or connection to the Higher Self & Deity as we know It/Them, Disbelief in the existence of the Soul, lack of recognition of the importance of the spiritual realm, an overwhelming sense of emptiness within our lives and accomplishments, a sense of "disconnection" from the Universal Plan/Source.

Positive Center is:  Color - Black or White (depends on system of learning), Time of Day - ALL times!, Part of Self - the ALL in a balanced state, Time in Life - ALL times awareness and balance are achieved, Time in Processes - this point exists and needs balancing at all times in life, self or process.  Negative Center is:  Feeling weak or unbalanced all the time, over-abundance or lack in one or more other points on the pentagram or in the Self, distrust of Self & Deity, a tendency to "blame" others or God/Goddess or scars or situations or any number of other things for imbalances rather than looking for the answers within the Self first and always.

Balance is both an active and resting state.  It is achieved by continual inventory and re-balancing in areas of need and active "pruning" in those areas in which we have over abundance.  Therefore, when we have certain patterns we are trying to break, we can realize yet another tool within the pentagram.  Each directional point as TWO points of counter-balance.  East has West and North to balance it.  South has North and Spirit to balance it.  West has Spirit and East to balance it.  North has East and South to balance it and Spirit has West and South to balance it.  So, whenever you're feeling either a lack or over abundance in any given area that is impacting your overall balance, seeking to add or subtract amounts therein by using the two counter balancing points is usually a good place to start looking for a solution. 

If you are constantly hindered by negative thought patterns (Negative East), then figure out what emotional attachments are at work there (West) and actively WORK to manifest change through meditation, gaining more teaching, learning new patterns or simply going for a walk to get out of your head for awhile!  If you're overly emotional about one or more topics (West), then think about them in detail and without emotional attachments to find the roots of this pattern so you can then ask Deity and Higher Self to help you rise above the emotions or delve more deeply into them -- whichever is required -- to help balance become the overall result.  If you find you are never finishing projects or patterns in life, but leave a trail of unfinished issues behind you (Negative North), then think carefully about this process and what it has served for you in the past (East) and then add some good, old-fashioned willpower to clean up your messes as much as possible and move on (South)!  And so on around the pentagram, depending on the issue being dealt with, as you go.

Always remember, we are active creatures.  If we're too stayed in any one way, we're not balanced.  If we're over the top in one area or another, we're not balanced.  So, try this set of exercises the next time you feel unbalanced and see if you can learn something valuable about yourself as you walk yourself through the correspondences of the pentagram! 

Blessed Be!